LIST YOU FORGET YOURSELF

Are you feeling listless? Like you’ve lost your list? Can’t remember what was on your list? Feel like you’re listing to port and starboard at the same time? Can’t even remember making a list? Sinking into listlessness? All at sea and under-water, not sure if you’re waving or drowning? No idea where you’re going, if you’re going anywhere or why you feel there’s nowhere worth the trouble to get to? Don’t even know what you really need anymore, or if you need anything you haven’t already decided is not worth having anyway? Nothing seems necessary anymore. Nothing seems real anymore. You feel like you’re in a dream, but you’re not even sure if you’re asleep, or if going to bed was even on your list. You must have lost your list last night and woken up into a world incurably listless. You have no idea what you should do next, cause you’re not even sure you haven’t already ticked it off your list. You don’t know which way to turn or if you need to turn at all if it wasn’t on your list. The world seems so impersonal and you don’t know if you should be taking it personally…

Maybe you need to make a list of all your symptoms, cause you’re definitely on my list of all those people suffering from “De-Personalization Disorder”, which is now officially on the list of mental derangements, demanding immediate treatment, some therapy and an appropriate course of medication, to get you back into the supermarket in the right aisles at the right time, finding everything you need to be perfectly upright, safely clutching your list in one hand and your prescription in the other. Keep taking the pills and you’ll never forget exactly who you are ever again….